Jerry: Elaine, breaking up is like knocking over a Coke machine. You can't do it in one push. You have to rock it back and forth a few times and then it goes over.
George: ... That is beautiful.
Today was a strange day, but lately, that seems to be the norm, doesn't it? Mostly up, but a few down points. Still a lot of confusion.
I skipped my first class because I woke up and wasn't feeling too hot, so I went back to sleep for an additional hour. It's almost show week, and the last thing that I want right now is to be getting sick. At any rate, the extra hour of sleep was nice, even if it meant that my day was "Price"less.
I missed Dr. Price's class.
That does kind of upset me, because I generally enjoy his classes. I feel like I learn a lot in them.
I don't know if it was the extra hour of sleep or what, but all day long, I had a very high level of energy and general happiness. I felt giddy for most of the day, and rehearsal was amazing. I love when a show is coming together, and this one is coming together very nicely. Also, I feel like I'm getting to know more of the cast, and that's always nice as well.
I've been feeling generally confused about my relationship situation.
I don't know what I want. I don't know whether I want to go back or not. I know all of this sounds very teenage angst-y, and I wish it didn't, but quite frankly, I don't know how I do/should feel coming off of a relationship of 3 1/2 years.
I don't think that at this point, I want to "see other people," but what I do feel like I want to do is to go out and meet someone new that I can just talk to. I'm very aware that I'm "on the rebound" so to speak, and therefore I'm very wary about any kind of relationship. I don't think that I'm ready for a new relationship, and like I've said a million times before, I don't know if that's what I want. But I do think that it would be nice to just go out and talk to someone and get to know someone new. Just make small talk and chat, that's all. I don't even care if it goes anywhere, and I'm not sure that I want it to. I just want to have fun.
Summary: I have no idea what I want.
Other than classes and Pirates of Penzance, there isn't really much else going on. I'm ready for the weekend. I'm hoping that I'll be able to hang out with the cast some more this weekend. One of the things that I have always loved about doing a show is the bond that forms between the cast. It is, in fact, quite a strong bond, and it has happened in every show that I've ever done, from 8th grade when I was in MASH and 42nd Street to today, 7 years later. Every cast, over the course of the time spent blocking, rehearsing, polishing, and performing, becomes a family. Every cast, in my experience at least, has been unforgettable.
That's all for now.
Ta,
A.
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